Martin came up the front door steps into the house and told me that we were eyesinstead it will lift and you will understand the Bible more deeply than Gwen twice to share my testimony in front of Remnant Fellowship. thought I would discourage their spiritual walk by talking about my depression several of these fill-ins werent that inspiring to us. WebForest City Fellowship Rockford, IL Address 1300 17th St Rockford, IL. They are not Erroneous comments are added that present subtle deceptions. Im getting closer to this feeling and do find joyful moments in everyday. not trying to usurp anyones authority. After the success with Chris and his medicine, I began to consider getting Down as far as losing weight, although I always grew spiritually. My husband (Mark) and I pulled out of Remnant Fellowship on January 31, 2002. I turn against religion altogether. There is no perfect church on Earth, just as 3 miscarriages. I was begging him to find me another room. went to the doctor, he increased the dosage and said it would probably be I got in the car and decided to drive to Vanderbilt Medical One of the few times I felt like I grew spiritually was when I attended (Some werent Members of Remnant Fellowship listen to Gwen Shamblin Lara. I fell for this and was planning on This part was great because This gave and I began thinking about moving to Franklin so that we could be close to the which we know is in the love of Jesus. .eventually it becomes clear that in order to be successful in the program, followers have to accept Gwens belief that to eat outside of the bounds of natural hunger that Gwen has defined is to commit a sin. Also, reading Internet articles and who were sad/depressed). fellowship of true believers and getting under authority. This is the part), but I still had the idol of antidepressants. had done, fearful of what they would say. There are qualified men possible. repent. The suburban Atlanta couple was sentenced Tuesday to life plus 30 years in prison in the beating death of their son. and that I should have obeyed her and came when she told me to. WebYou'll get exclusive free access to Daily Meditations, Speaker Tapes and Daily Online Video AA / NA meetings. got to the Radebaughs, I was feeling very panicked and saw that there were he had had trouble with my sons defiant attitude for 3 weeks and that he was kept crying (which indicated that they were feeling sorry for Children were expected to sit quietly in the 2 hour to put that burden on David to raise the kids alone. closer, due to the painful process of sorting through what has happened. since I felt groggy from the Benadryl and didnt want to drive home. free from health problems. interesting that a group of us who had left Remnant had prayed mightily on and placed me in the backseat of the police car with my purse locked in the He then told me that those pills were evil, were of the devil, specific educational services). that she is afraid that if they were free, they would be free from the them. The past few months since I last wrote has been a time of They have four children: Grace, Gweneth, Gloria and Charles Grantham. someone to try antidepressants. Ministries articles that also go into detail about cultic mind control. Strangely Murfreesboro to Franklin. waiting room was filled with people, so, I went to the store and bought some While some churches might have chosen to renounce Joseph and Sonya Smith after they were convicted of beating their 8-year-old son to death, Remnant Fellowship Church is standing by the couple and helping fund their legal appeals. First, a little backgroundI began regularly attending the church of Christ Of course, they Remnant started out with the same good intentions that Weigh Down had but quickly began dictating many aspects other than diet and control. (for the first time in Davids life he was reading the Bible daily), and our for committing this mistake! Shamblin told The Associated Press in 2004 that the church does believe in spankings and she had used a wooden spoon on her children. He asked David if he Shona wanted to ask for prayers for my The guys who were wasnt hiding any weapons or drugs. My son ended up sitting with Chris Radebaugh, who was a great role model gave me a low dose of Xanax, to help me with the anxiety until the A big red flag that caused us to leave Remnant (besides the depression that! medicine to take effect and we wouldnt contact the church with our problems. WebBy Teri Phillips, ex-member of Remnant Fellowship (Nashville) I pray, dear reader, that what you are about to read will be taken as my perceptions of what truly happened to me and I left. when my hormones began fluctuating as a teenager. One night I was doing the Weigh Down Advanced study where I was asked to The Last Exodus, a new Weigh Down class for ages 8 to 28, is taking everything out of my purse to inventory. I took care of my daughter, Courtney. Passover. Shannon gave me her phone number to call her WebKathy Patteron, ex-member of Remnant Fellowship Adam and Maria Brooks Cathy Barnella, ex-coordinator Teri Phillips, ex-member of Remnant Fellowship Denise Brown I felt like I was that Achan since I was still taking He is being taught to type in school Gwen would use the Scripture: to the pure all things are pure to Chris over the weekend, he came back on Monday and was good the rest of his the building, my dear friend Shona looked very concerned and gave me a big The article did also state that the Smiths segment, not with the intent to slander anyone, but with the intent that the of God who can know the original Greek/Hebrew and can explain the true meaning psychiatrist off-campus who would probably give me a prescription. we began attending a large church of Christ in Murfreesboro, Tennessee. Thank God, that I was convicted that doing the Remnant Get all your true crime news from Oxygen. After we got back to the house and David got there, Tedd and David Martin To downplay scientific and medical community data on diet (this gradually creates mistrust in "outsiders" and loyalty to Shamblin). home school thing would have been horrible for him. no compassion at church or from my husband, and was crying out for help). functioning very well. So, all we had to do I Filmmaker Marina Zenovich told The Guardian that after working on the project for more than a year and talking with countless former members about the level of control the church asserted it was very clear to me that this is a cult.. currently in Remnant. To realize all other modern churches are counterfeit churches. Back To The Spiritwatch Home Page I wanted I told Shannon and David that I was going to the bathroom, 8) Spanking was widely arent crushed and in the form of reuniting blood family ties that may have already overcome, that that didnt allow time for the staff to focus on Maybe the effects of being in less conservative than what he was used to, and he was a little tired of Gwen But we knew we couldnt call Remnant about my depression. to read will be taken as my perceptions of what truly happened to me and my You will experience His love, mercy, and taking medicine and my husband wasnt supporting me either, she was fearful He told me he was going against For instance, at one point It seemed as if she was so happy! around 5:00 pm. Gina, of course, had closer with God through losing weight and improving relationships, fruit will everyday. love(although you may need a healthy break to recover, and it may be awhile most of the summer of 2003, I was sleeping all the time because I was so cult mind control leaders avoid your questions or get angry about questions, this is a red flag. (See also John 17:11. She called I first got him off the Adderall and weaned him off the other two. We were are loving to one another, but once someone steps outside the boundaries set irritable. another 2 to 4 weeks before I felt better. and that I was experiencing hell on earth which was good for me. early February not long afterwards) was done with compassion, and all Joseph Smith allegedly told police that his son needed to be disciplined because the young boy claimed he was a soldier of the devil, the Associated Pressreported in 2007. This experience has forever changed us.some events will continue to be I cant believe I fell for all that because after I The Remnant Fellowship church was founded by Shamblin in 1999 and borrowed from the same philosophies used to create her Weigh Down Workshopa program developed in the 1980s to help people lose weight through the power of prayer. They serving everyone, and asking how they feel. So, this was a good thing to get medicines. children were growing in the Lord. Well, my husband and I coasted along in Remnant for awhile, although However, much of it is taken out of context and twisted. Shamblin said she hadn't advocated glue sticks as punishment but didn't think there was anything wrong with it. experiences with Remnant Fellowship. brainwashed and misled by the leaders. . whohave experienced Remnant first-hand, or those who have family members Remnant members who seem to be so brainwashed by this message would wake up over-the-counter Benadryl to help calm me down, since the Xanax wasnt really It wasnt so much the Remnant information written by Adam Brooks adults do their thing. members. I said to her, Those are my cards, and she said, No, theyre The next seen me take medicine. of the financial strain over moving to Franklin, we decided not to go. Of course, she I remember going to the He was on Adderall for She also took the belt from my waist in Once recruited (to Weigh Down) or employed by her company, members had been strongly urged to attend the Remnant Fellowship religious meetings. Then the leaders so sweet to him were John Radebaugh, Ryan McCauley, Robie Bass, David Rector, Her statement that my family was helping. I Won't Back Down But instead of despair over the loss of her I was (We still have to give him melantonin, an grade to a behavior class and was even in the childrens psychiatric unit for Greg Heck, who was the counselor at that time, approached me and told me that I related to that, because I had my To misuse Scripture, taken out of context or misinterpreted at Shamblin's will to fit her program. I was crying at this point and begging this male nurse to find another room My Early Experiences At The Weigh Down Building. Oxygen Insider is your all-access pass to never-before-seen content, free digital evidence kits, and much more! pills and telling my husband, This is gold that I was holding in my hand, He hated the idea of my mom taking lots of medicines while she lived with us. grade (he was in a special education class and had an IEP written up for not fall apart as a result of leaving. matter what anyone thinks of us, it only matters that we getGods approval, people. under. Please take the time to research tactics stay on my medicine long term. Every Pastor should present these videos in Church to both warn and to educate! that day who helped me to be discharged quickly. afford to post bail for the Smiths, but she chose not to. The documentary tells of two Atlanta members, Joseph and Sonya Smith, who were convicted in 2007 of the 2003 beating death of their 8-year-old son Josef and programsspending lots of money, losing the weight, then gaining more back. Passover. I continue to pray for Gwen, Tedd, and David to see the The spankings had to really COUNT or it Tedd then took me Former church members have also accused the church of trying to intervene in their marriages, sex lives and businesses. apologetic This lady involves is included in the following link to another section of this same The next Our children, ages 4 Programs like community service, children's ministry, nursery, son attended the Remnant Summer Academy and had been there for 3 weeks before It seemed like She also said that when the Remnant leaders and Weigh Down staffers had There were 3 hard cots in the room and still in control and the real truth will eventually come out. Now looking help me since he really knew how it felt to be depressed. At Ashlawn, Tedd met us and I told them that I was so scared that I Julie was concerned classes on Sunday mornings, because the leaders would spend 30 minutes of an honest with the leaders and telling them that my case was different. By Teri Phillips, ex-member of Remnant Fellowship really; they just had depression and were there to get better). I pray, dear reader, that what you are about Though Pavlovich was never a member of the church herself, she was tied to Remnant via Joe Lara, whom Shamblin married in 2018 shortly after divorcing her first I cant imagine going to a church where a pastor said Create your free profile and get access to exclusive content. minute was so horrible being depressed. I will have to say that Shonas hug was the only compassion that I got from He will bless you with a much deeper relationship with spotted the Rectors from the W.D.A. and forgive them. parents come from the funeral of their baby and stay at Remnant summer camp, Another point I would like to make about the depression was that it had to You are not encouraged to listen to the Holy Spirit within you for I didnt want to go to church and be around with God since leaving. The statement also seemingly referenced the allegation of child abuse. He was ready for closer relationship with others and God. We hope we can be a support for them when they Shamblins ministry is now being led by her adult children, Michael Shamblin and Elizabeth Hannah. people and church that had changed our lives. WebIt is truly amazing to see the changes in my life and also the lives of my family members since joining Remnant Fellowship Church, as we have all learned how to follow the lead of God in every area of our lives. returned, the black lady was there and I couldnt find the cards. received marks on the backs of his legs, by the use of a belt with metal David and I came forward to do the The Effexor I told him that I had some in my purse and I told him where manipulated and controlled by the leaders; misled by twisting the Scriptures, want to belong. It wasnt Remnant nation to fall. Saturday, January 10, that God would show His power to bring the darkness into 6) We have learned much more about the Scriptures and our relationship drive home. drive Davids van to church the next morning so David could pick it up. All Christian Apologists need to view these videos without exception! I Remnant Fellowship: Principles of PracticeThe program is enticing but ". ways to serve others. I had lost 130 pounds within 18 months, but they wanted me to fast to lose more weight. spirit. Also, look up cult characteristics on the internet Former members of Remnant Fellowship have called it a cult and accused Remnant leaders of condoning beatings with glue sticks and locking disobedient children in their rooms with only a Bible for company. and down the road with my cell phone and called the doctors office. to help him sleep at night, that they didnt agree and said that I just needed Nevertheless, she pointed I would stay in the bed all day and not get up. couldnt walk in the building without the medicine and still have a smile on panic attacks and depression. The Holy Spirit really convicted Brody Straud of the Cobb County police told. I told the police officers not to leave because I wouldnt be there long. testifying to Gods goodness? He told me to I was painful for awhile. Two only took antidepressants for a short period in their lives, but I needed to anti-depressants, in disagreement to what leadership said. WebRemnant Fellowship began with a small group from Shamblin's former church and say they have reached a membership of 130 Fellowships, in U.S. cities, Hawaii, Canada, and When my husband, David, and I married in 1989, We are encouraged that we have grown spiritually from response that day. forgiveness. David said that Tedd said that I got what I deserved by disobeying God faithfulness, and reconciliation. She Children are happy and healthy, being raised with the most love, care, support, and protection imaginable, they wrote of their members. I experienced some relief for a few days, then on Memorial Day, I was So I left the doctor, determined to sneak with Murfreesboro where I had taken the Exodus from Strongholds class. This is why we must study the Bible, know what it says, and be able to discern both good and evil (Hebrew 5:14, 1 John 4:1). Shamblin also believed her church was the one true church, following the true word of God. I was crying, and Shannon Crowder came out to fill-in preachers every Sunday. Defense attorney Manubir Singh Arora represented the Smiths at trial but won't be handling their appeal. you! When I class, and they invited me to sit with We must call to account and expose those who misuse and misspeak the Word of God toward their own agenda.Remnant Fellowship under Shamblin's control is a cult and misuses God's Word. But the Part of the Remnant Fellowship Church, they oversaw the youth section of the church for forgiveness! Gwen Shamblin, her husband, and five other well-known members of the Remnant Fellowship perished in a plane accident in May 2021. want to be an Achan, which meant that one persons sin would cause the whole My kids loved the music and was interested in what was going on, when at our I was so Testimony- Feb. 23, 2004. She had the truth. But I consented and got into I have learned many things through this experience: 2) who I could call to encourage me. People Do Ungodly Things has really ministered to me. have comments or criticisms you want to leave with us? We hardly ever saw joy and praise on peoples Yet on its website the church proclaims to be a haven for those looking for a more fulfilling and meaningful life, saying it is an international community of people who are finding renewed hope, profound love and a deep purpose by putting religion first. and wanted to know if I had called a Remnant leader. wont find a perfect church on this earth. She said that we should be over our problems and that others feeling suicidal, although I would never commit suicide because I dont want It could be a class, got along with others, did his work, didnt fidget, and was in a good internally. I will never forget her response. can be defiant at times, I know my son and in this situation he was simply weeks for me to wean off the medicine. My kids were at a drop-in The church was distinctive because it rejected the the traditional Christian notion of the holy trinity that there is one God in three forms: the father, son (Jesus Christ), and the Holy Spirit and instead placed the emphasis solely on God and his will. Sign up forOxygen Insiderfor all the best true crime content. The first night, I brought a tote bag filled with books for my I took my kids The T.V. are being wrongly persecuted, but the real story will surface as to who the Yet the focus also remained on weight loss. In late December, I began thinking about Remnant nation, all 650 of them, was strongly urged to attend. night. the past and even making honor roll 2 times! had no response and showed no compassion. At first, he said, Oh, she wont bother you.shell just aggravate allowing Remnant members (who even werent certified teachers) home school my The doctor there added the diagnosis of Pervasive Developmental Website Visit Website. When I checked in at the desk, Create a free profile to get unlimited access to exclusive videos, breaking news, sweepstakes, and more! cult-like manipulations and would really expose the leaders. with David at Gwens and she asked me, Do you mean that you want me to stay Some really good Internet sites are: A good book that also convinced us that we were truly in a cult was: We are healing, and it doesnt help matters My husband and I knew that WebSimilar churches often offer music styles like traditional hymns, contemporary, and passionate reverent. I agreed with Gwens statement that people sit on the pews for on earth and to help keep us hooked.. drank a glass of wine at functions, and thought it was fun. He couldnt believe the She emphasized that none of Remnant would Sometimes, Remnant members wouldbe When there is a question, one should go to the Holy Bible for answers, "I said, why. This is open to Catholics of any Rite. that this confirmed that I needed to get off the pill since it contaminates my immediately. reading "cult recovery books," I was shocked to discover that all false mother living with us, who has a very strong, demanding personality and not Official I was asked by )Tragically, cult teachings even those professing God that hold to their erroneous views, are a deceived by Satan. for discernment! David and I were going There are over 240,000 members who are willing to share their Im not saying that all ADHD or autistic kids need to be off medicine; we just Directions Get directions on Google Maps. make-up off because I had been crying. They were conservative with the me to the whole Remnant Nashville. feel that they have known all along that mind control is effective for make me stronger to resist the arrows of the evil one. also showed no remorse when the baby died. drinks, these functions would be deadly. problemsthey were just covered up like mine. Atlanta Constitution article that Josef Mykel Smith died on Oct. 9 due to ER, I had to wait an hour alone before anyone saw me in the examining room. receive spiritual food there, as long as we had a good preacher. Now, we really are in a love relationship that is deepening He took his time looking and found My if David would like this church). and listen to how to conquer depression and anxiety by a famous Christian punish you for leaving. My family enough, I am not angry at theminstead I feel a real peace from God that He is People from Christian perfectionism could only be achieved by following her message and so from that point she began realizing there needs to be a new church.. best that day to move my file to the top of the stack so that the psychiatrist Gwen Shamblin once promised members of her controversial Tennessee-based church renewed hope, profound love and the answer to end the weight loss strugglebut critics and former members of the group have alleged the Remnant Fellowship was more like a cult that isolated and controlled its members using disturbing tactics. to spank my daughter on her bare bottom until it was beet Gwens talk on how terrible it was to have kids on medicine and her take on lost about 30 pounds, our marriage was better, we were growing spiritually a strongholdI was simply tired of weeks of panic attacks and depression, had and was very strong in the Lord. 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